bloggin again..

been wanting to blog .. but weekends seems too precious to just sit in front of the computer and just slack my time away.. and it gets too tiring too.. now that i have been exercising.. not moving much will kind of lead to me feeling very lethargic..

I am starting to get used to army life.. and i really kinda like it now.. even though it gets quite tiring.. but you constantly feel challenged, and at the end of it all you feel accomplished. Cos you will never thought you could have pushed yourself mentally through it..

but something about army is it requires your constant focus all the time.. so you got really tired and have very little energy to think right or even think.. God has too become very vague to me now too.. haha.. being where i am now sometimes make me feel so weird.. cos it does not coincide with what i used to do.. like hangin out at church and stuff.. and now these things too have become very foreign to me.. so its kinda the feelin lost thingy .. its a very different kinda lost.. dunno how to explain.. i guess i have been away for just too long..

On top of all these ..there's this someone who could still constantly pop up in my mind.. well there are lots of decisions that we have to make .. and some that i am really struggling with .. things you have been asking.. sometimes you look so unhappy and do not want to share.. hmm..

well i guess that's all for my life.. everyone thinks being in commandos like very big a deal .. but its actually not.. furthermore i am just a recruit not a full commando yet.. hmm... yeap..that's all ... missed ya lots ..