to see you when i wake up is a gift
i didn't think could be real
to know that you feel the same as i do
is a three fold utopian dream
you do something to me that i can't explain
so would i be out of line if i said
i miss you

i see your picture
i smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
you have only been gone 10 days
but already im wasting away
i know ill see you again
weither far or soon
but i need you to know
that i care
and i miss you

Survived Field Camp

Intense, Crazy, Hectic, Exhausting, Satisfying, Achieved

These are some of the words that came to my mind.. i truly cant imagine how did i completed (or even survived) field camp.. SBO hard 4 sand cans in it, plus carrying my rifle everywhere i went. The weight was extremely demoralising.. couldnt do proper push ups the first field days, and definitely couldnt run with the extra weight. But still we were made to do it. Some times during running we had our fieldpack on.. Physically, totally drained .. only left with your mind controlling your body to push on.. if not there can never be rest.. yes you can always hope on the safety rover and be driven to the next location.. but this will just show you are 1 cut below the rest.. making matters worst.. your feet is cover with blisters, and some blisters had blisters under it.. the pain was intense.. mind had to be focus .. i bet i was not thinking when i was marching .. cos all the mind was doing was just to instruct the movement of both legs ..

But thank God it is all over.. cant imagine how i went through it.. but den again .. like one of my favourite army quotes "Tough time dont last.. tough man do.." so i hope to be able to be tougher..

Field Camp

Yup i wil be at field camp from 15 - 26 Aug.. yup so wont be around next weekend.. hai.. wonder what kinda hell we gonna get .. but hey spending time in the jungle i guess it may be fun.. pray that God will show me something when i am there..

yup so wont be around next weekend.. wont be seeing ya guys .. so any meeting up can be done after the 26 Aug..

Oh ya wont be see ya too.. so miss ya..

same feeling

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Letter 5

Hey there

I guess this is my 5th letter if i am not wrong.. hmmmm.. yup sorry if the other letters were boring.. were quite tired when i wrote them .. but i guess you didnt like them .. really sorry .. Have not talked to you much.. really do not know what's up your mind .. so i guess will just have to wait..

over and out..

Training

This week training was tough. Had 2 route marches, first one 12 km the other was 16 km.. had my IPPT too.. as well as SOC training.. Wah throughout the week i felt like giving up.. maybe i am not cut up to be a commando.. i am mentally and physically not fit enough to endure, even though my sergents all kept saying " Can one its all in the mind"

But thank God its all over.. so now left week this week which is half a week, followed by field camp which is 2 weeks in tekong.. so it will be 2 weeks away from civilization.. wah .. mind will go crazy sia..

yup so tat's all for this week