Things to do .. When school is done

mEETING wITH mISS tEO
Tuesday 5 April..
dunno go where yet..
Tim going ..
Bala waiting for tim to ask..
Look out for place to makan or hang out..

gO kAYAKING wITH hOZEA
Everyday on his off days..
SOP blade first den kayak later..

tRIP tO kL
11-13 april with school frens..

gET jOB
sAVE uP fOR cHINA tRIP mAYBE cHURCH cAMP tOO
fIND sOMETHING tO dO
pRACTICE bASS aND gUITAR
fIND GIRLFREN (oPTIONAL HAHA)
sTART tRAINING uP fOR nS
and this list goes on..

Hmmm.. where to start ??

Ok the pass few days has not been the greatest.. I think i will start from the dinner.

Well since sat was my last paper, i was actually quite tired after it. Then brought my family to the easter dinner. It was quite exciting at the beginning, as I thought i could get more church peeps to meet my parents kinda thing, but there was very little interaction. Many people just came said their "Hi"s and then left. The message was ok, hope God did sowed something into my family.. so I will leave it as that. The day ended with issues i had with someone... Hmmm had many mixed feeling about it.. hai..

Well sunday didnt started right as well... Woke up late for service like for the 3rd time in my life.. because of the tiredness carried over from saturday... Erm... attended some sunday school thingy ... first time in like such a long time... quite interesting.. but feels weird .. After church played a little bit of bball as well as table tennis.. Have not played bball in a while, body was quite inflexible.. Gloria's shooting was very good tat day .. but beat her in table tennis... hahah.. After sports went with hozea twins joel tim and dom for some pool.. not bad get to hang out with ppl my age, something i have not done in a while.. Issues with person continued.. Evening went to cousin's house, because she just gave birth to a baby boy. AMAZING man .. now she has 4 sons.. one more and she can have a basketball team.. or actually she already has a street basketball 3-on-3 team and 1 reserve. Oh yes conlusion from visit: I can handle almost any kid.. but i cant carry a baby.. gotta learn to do that... Erm.. oh yes sorta resolved issues with person.. Slept early due to intense tiredness...

Hai.. monday went to school almost full day.. due to the project show on thurs.. my group didnt turn up in the morning.. so got some scolding from a few teachers.. hai.. the day wasnt that good.. Suppose to meet her.. but decided not too because was not in a good mood.. Due to the project show, still not well rested ..

Today .. was in school another full day .. eh went driving.. but was called back to school because i was given some flash project.. So wont be sleeping tonite once again.. amazing sia.. when will all these end ??!!! So gotta wait till thurs after the project show.. I heard results will be out next week .. wonder will i graduate.. hai... gotta go back to my flash project.. hope i will survive...

music coming in .. bass line.. drums .. 1 and 2 and 3 .
At first I was afraid
I was petrified
I kept thinking I could never live without you
By my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you've done me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to get along

And so you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you
Here without that look upon your face

I should have changed my f*ckin' lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I had had know for just one second
You'd be back to bother me

Well now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around
Now, you're not welcome anymore

Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumple?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?

Oh not I,
I will survive
Yeah
As Long as I know how to love,
I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive,
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces
Of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry,
But now I hold my head up high

And you see me
With somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person
Still in love with you
And so you thought you'd just drop by
And you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my lovin'
For someone whose lovin' me

Well now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around
Now, you're not welcome anymore

Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumple?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?

Oh not I,
I will survive
Yeah
As long as I know how to love,
I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive,
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

Oh no

A few more hours to go

I will be taking my final paper in my polytechnic days.. Cant wait.. quite lazy to study ... but still gotta study ..

There is also easter dinner too .. fwah excited...

hai.. nothing much to say these days .. short post..
yeap peeps will be quite free . so those who wanna meet for dinner or something do let me know ..

Sitting outside ivin's house

It's been almost an hour already ..
butt kinda aching ..
listen to music on my ibook ..
thank God there is internet connection here..
battery going to finish soon ..

hmmm..
was at the library studyin ..
sat is my last paper ..
next thurs i will be having project show .. who can make it please let me know..

Oh yes this sat my whole family coming easter dinner..
haha .. i kinda tricked them into coming.. i told them i got the tickets to go so everyone must go no matter what
wah will be paying for everyone lor.. 30 per person .. i got 6 seats .. so $180 bucks .. pocket screaming in pain sia. but it is for a good cause..

Please pray that God will sow into their hearts .especially my Dad.. =)

普通朋友

等待 我随时随地在等待 做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问 这是爱 我猜 你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败 从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈 我愿意改变 (what can I do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me chance)
我无法只是普通朋友 感情已那么深 叫我怎么能收手
但你说 I only want to be your friend 做个朋友
我猜你心中只是 just a friend 不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白 但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
So I 我不能只是 be your friend I just can't be
your friend no,no,no,我不能只是做你的朋友
不能只是做普通朋友

Life by the Spirit

   16So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. 17For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want. 18But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law.

   19The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

   22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and selfcontrol. Against such things there is no law. 24Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. 25Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.

Getting back

ha to anonymous .. dun really feel encourage cos i dunno who you are.. makes it very easy for you to say it.. so your comments are ignored ..

well .. didnt study this week .. just got back from malaysia on fri .. den just came back from planetshakers concert.. thanks to my mei LiNa whose pastor had extra tickets that i am able to go.. enjoy a great time with her as well as her church ppl ... all very friendly ppl.. Oh yes there is also aNgEliNe.. She smiled more today.. and we also exchanged a few words... so this is like the longest conversation we had.. haha .. she always strikes me as a very interesting person .. oh yes she has the same birthday as me.. how cool is that !!

well this week in malaysia has got me thinkin about alot of things .. as well as been praying and talking to God more .. Really wanting to seek and get back the old passion .. Was talking to Ivin and Kel more .. kinda remind me of the good old days where 3 of us will hang out and do nonsense.. and talk about ministry .. worry for ppl .. pray for them .. Well i think i heard some stuff from God.. but wont blog till i get a confirmation..

Well today's planetshakers concert was very interesting.. most of the ppl are rather charasmatic.. I mean it is not a bad thing.. just tat i didnt quite understand it.. Did really know the first few songs .. so was quite distracted by the music rather than worshipping or reading the lyrics.. all of the ppl on stage was really power.. the electric solos . the drums .. the bass .. the keyboard.. the harmonies.. i felt more like being at a rock concert.. my jeans were falling off so couldnt jump as much too .. wahahha .. the band was very tight.. they new when to stop when to play.. the musicians all were very steady .. so i just stood there and listen .. only when they repeated some songs or sang familiar ones that i get to worship and think abt the words.. It was an interestin experience..

Thanks one again to my mei LiNa .. glad she enjoyed the concert too..

Dear God hear this I pray

Here i stand
before you my heart is still
wanting just to be with you
waiting here
long for your voice to speak
touch me now
its your face i seek

how my soul longs for you
to be with you
adore you
nothing more i want to do
than to sing to you

jesus im in love with you
speak to me
whisper you words of truth
take my heart
won't you make me new
jesus, how i love you
how i love you

on my knees
before you i lay my life
giving all
a living sacrifice
take my life
and all that i long to be
set apart
only for you my king

how my soul longs for you
to be with you
adore you
nothing more i want to do
than to sing to you

jesus im in love with you
speak to me
whisper your words of truth
take my heart
won't you make me new
jesus, how i love you
how i love you

how my soul longs for you
how my soul longs for you
how my soul longs for you
how my soul longs for you

Amen

Paralyzed

Yup drained, tired, sian, cant be bothered, joyless, unmotivated.
Ben is now nothing but a walking zombie without a soul..
drained from doing endless projects which has finally just ended..
Now have fallen to the temptations of a machine.. xbox..
Continous hours of playing... looked lifeless .. body no energy.. half closed eyes..
So ones again .. man's will power has lost to a miserable black box..
Doing totally nothing at all .. not even studying for my exams which is coming..
not even quiet time..
so tired ..

But it will not end this way ...

Weird dream

so hard to type it out here.. but it is so weird ..

Take the place of my heart

Till I become a stranger to my life

I've been down without you

Wrong without your love

In time will I be what

You're thinking of

Problems sleeping again

WAH !! I cant sleep ... now its like 2am lesson is at 9... I feel like playing xbox .. but if i do that i will not sleep at all !! I do not know why i have this stupid sleepin problem .. well actually i think i know la.. but why does it gotta happen to me..

i have been slacking the pass few days when exams are not over
my exams are in like 2 weeks time
ivin's wife joyce scolded me for i going to KL with the guys next week to reckie the camp site. ha
so must study harder before and after i go KL
so fast school ending in 2 days time
you i miss
oh no what am i going to do
u and your beautiful soul

Now i know =)

To really love a woman,
To understand her,
You've got to know her deep inside
Hear every thought,
See every dream,
And give her wings when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms,
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman,
You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman,
You tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody, to tell her that it's gonna last forever
She needs somebody, to tell her that you'll always be
together
So tell me have you ever really...really, really ever loved a
woman

To really love a woman,
Let her hold you,
Till you know how she needs to be touched
You've got to breathe her, really taste her
Till you can feel her in your blood
And when you see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

You've got to give her some faith,
Hold her tight, a little tenderness
You've got to treat her right
She will be there for you taking good care of you
You really gotta love your woman

And when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms,
You know you really love a woman

Planet SHAKERS coming to town

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YEAP !! They are coming .. for those who dunno they are the ones who brought you reflector and a few others that we have been singing..

I will be going on the 19 nite .. so who interested to go can sms me and i will go get the tickets .. Latest date to confirm will be fri nite !!! Let me know soon please !!!

It's all over !!

Just finished my final project presentation !! YEAY no more projects already !! It was a job well done according to the judges !! WHAT A RELIEF !! cant imangine finished already .. so now its party !! den after that study for exams ..

It's all over !!

Another night never sleep

Fwah .. my last report that i had to do for this term, and i had to stay up all night once again to complete. When will all these stop!! feeling so drained and tired sia... Really cant imagine how i survive all these.. After todays report submission.. tomorrow Final Year Project presentation, i think i will be quite lost.. dunno what i will be doing.. i think i will really just play x box all the way ...

To my DEAR fren ..
hmmm last nite was waiting for your call .. still wondering if you are ok ... pls drop me a msg when you see this.. take care..

Planet Shakers CONCERT

on 19 March there is Planet Shakers Concert at downtown east ..
Will be finding out how to get tix..

WHO wanna go ?? please sms me .. further details will be posted

Drifting ..

Now finished my final year project already.. there is just one more report to write and submit by friday .. some how got no mood to do it.. so tired and exhausted and lethagic.. Presentation is this friday.. after that will be exams .. also dun feel like studying .. but is the final lap already so must study .. hai ..

After that will be army i guess .. have not got my letter yet.. tat means will have quite a bit of time to slack.. dunno going to do what... if i slack i will have no money .. if i work i will have no time to do what i want to do.. Wanna go China .. tat means must work to save up .. wanna go to europe or new zealand with frens .. but means also must save up .. really dunno how sia..

Well just 24 more days to go .. shall wait and see how ..

It's all done

Haha i know it's been days but here i am to report.. All finished.. Final Year Project is done and over with already .. Now just waiting for the term to end .. YEAH !!!