For You

Just realise that after reading through ppl's blog.. That they will always refer to that special someone is "You", "She", "Her" or for gals "He", "Him", "His". Being very careful not to expose on the net who is this person.

So i have found this extract from a  poem.. It is for her..where ever you are ...to say how i feel:

I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose,
topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and
 carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the
earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when,
or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any
other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is
my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes
that close.

Patch Adams

Patch Adams
Academy Award® -winner Robin Williams is Patch Adams - a doctor who believes in laughter as medicine and will do just about anything to make his patients laugh - even if it means risking his own career. Based on a true story, Patch Adams combines sidesplitting humor with an inspiring story that transcends the traditional comedy.

After watching the movie quite a few times, this is because they kept showing it on HBO, i was kinda influenced by Patch's theology about laughter, and influencing people.

One of the things he said during the movie
" You treat the sickness, you win or lose. But you treat the person, I guaranttee you will win."

It kinda gave me the thought that it's not the length of time spent on earth, but the quality of time spent on earth that matters. Many times we are trying to extend the length of life, but not improving the quality of it. It kinda makes me wanna be a doc.. but at this time i dun think can be one liao ..

BUT ! I know that i can improve the quality of lives around me.. That why i am thinking of starting a project, and i name it the "Ben's Patch Project". In this project, i will create a website , putting up names of people whose lives i interact with and note them down. This will be done as soon as i am more free .. Well improving the quality of life around me, i guess would be making ppl happy .. help them relieve stress, share their sorrows.. help them with their problems .. and the list goes on .. i guess in summary is to help them become positive again .. hahaha

Well feel free to join me .. You can start one on your own too ..

Bus Ride Again

I am starting to enjoy bus rides more and more...

Well today's QT on the bus was good. One line that hit me the most is that the daily bread ask is your relationship with God getting simpler? And it was like super mind-blowing.. This is because if you look at our human relationships, it gets so complex, like i kinda like hanging out with this friend but dun like this aspect of him, or i hang out with this person because this most of my click hang out with this person but i actually dun like him or whatever..

It's the same with our relationship with God... Many times we go to go because we are in trouble, or when we are down, or when we need him .. or we go to him to thank him for this or that.. and our relationship with him is build on our surrounding, or what is going on and happening around us defines our relationship with him.. But that's not what it should be. It should be on the basis that he died on the cross to be our saviour from sins, this basis that enables us to have a relationship with Him.. and the rest is just a response.. and that simple. And when that level of simplicity is achieved, everything else seems secondary. And because God has become the centre of our lives, he will feed us with the response align with his will, rather than vice versa the things around us controls our response to him ..

Many times i have heard many people giving expositions .. and they describe it so simply.. and i found it quite hard to accept. But now i understand .. haha

Thank You God

Mona Lisa Smiles...

 

 
Hey Hey .. Click on the picture to see what happens to her ... haha

Time is so Precious .. Tick Tock ...

Hand Written Clock ( I like this one)
Human Clock
Time Line
Time Piece
Block Clock
Cable Clock
http://www.california.com/~binard/java/Binclock.html

Work Yesterday and today..

Well work has been great, once more trying to tell myself not to dread coming to work everyday. But it's not i dun like the work i am doing, i just kinda not like waking up everyday .. doing some sort of a routine... and also sitting here alone most of the time .. sometimes it kinda drives me nuts ..

But yesterday was quite interesting, there was christopher, also an IT person, he was here to fix some stuff .. so get to chat with him about computers.. very power sia.. quite inspired to learn more about com stuff again.. Den Wesley came.. Dan's bro.. and also IT guy .. we went to have coffee .. so quite relax .. here them talk more about IT stuff.. also very shiok .. can relac also .. haha ..

Hope today will be the same.. going to start work liao ..

Lunch With Alan Rachael and Becky

 

It was good .. being able to talk to Alan and Rachael ... haha i realise it was quite a tough combi cos both of them quite quiet and becky came late and had to do most of the talkin to get them to talk.. haha... dunno they feel weird or not :P .. but I was good.. get to know abit more about Rachael and a bit more about Alan .. haha .. like i said they quite quiet ppl .. so it was good for me.. I hope they had a good time too ...

Heaven by Live

You don't need no friends
Get back your faith again
You have the power to believe
Another dissident Take back your evidence
It has no power to deceive

I'll believe it when I see it for myself

I don't need no one to tell me about heaven
I look at my daughter, and I believe.
I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth
I can see the sunset and I perceive

I sit with them all night
Everything they say is right
But in the morning they were wrong
I'll be right by your side
Come hell or water high
Down any road you choose to roam

I'll believe it when I see it for myself

I don't need no one to tell me about heaven
I look at my daughter, and I believe.
I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth
I can see the sunset and I perceive, yeah

Darling, I believe, Oh Lord
Sometimes it's hard to breathe,
Lord At the bottom of the sea, yeah yeah

I'll believe it when I see it for myself

I don't need no one to tell me about heaven I
 look at my daughter, and I believe.
I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth
I can see the sunset and I perceive (x2)
I can see the sunset
I can see the sunset
I don't need no one
I don't need no one,
oh I don't need no one
I don't need no one
To tell me about heaven
I believe I believe it, yeah

 
Well a new favourite song.. hope you ppl will like it.. and i believe it's true that God is around us all the time. He is with us through his creation, it's just a whether we take the time to look at it to enjoy. And we do not have to go to mount everest to see a beautiful mountain top scene, or hawaiin sunset to see God.. Yes indeed these scenes are breathe taking, but i believe that we take time to look at ppl around us, they are very breath taking too.. It's just a matter of how you really wanna enjoy their presence.. Well think about it..

At Work ...

Fwah .. yesterday got to work late .. sian just when i said wanna come on time.. today also counted late even though i reached here on time.. Cos it was raining heavily .. so me dad was in a good mood and gave me a lift to work .. Gotta talk to him more.. always have our conversations in the car..

Fwah today at work super sian .. finally got work but i dun feel like doin it.. plus last nite had supper with daniel ... den went to play warcraft and cs till 2 .. got home about 2plus .. now feelin quite sleepy... but it was worth it la.. very long never hang out like that .. plus daniel now will be at tekong wont see him for like next 3 weeks .. AHHH .. open worship will be killer without him .. and with kel not around .. i only guitarist ... dunno how also .. well all these things aside for now.. going back to work... got some more stuff i wanna blog .. but no time... sian...

Early For Work

Yeah!! .. today i made it to work on time!! For the past 1 month, i am not able to catch the earlier bus to work, that's why i am always 10 or 15 minutes late.. Even though there is not much work to be done, but that's not the excuse to be late. but this is a start, and i will try to come early everyday .. Feeling quite fresh today, and the past few days have been great, being able to talk to various peops and get closer to their lives.
 
Oh yah .. i actually had the song Jesus Freak played on the blog, but i realised that you will need a realplayer to be able to hear it, and not many ppl have it. So i gotta change it to more contempory songs... Well you can still read the lyrics.. quite meaning full
 
The current song that is playing now is by chad kroeger titled hero.. It came from the first spiderman sound track. Quite shiok song...
 
Well going to get back to work .. will blog more later after lunch ..

JeSuS FrEaK

Separated, I cut myself clean
From a past that comes back in my darkest of dreams
Been apprehended by a spiritual force
And a grace that replaced all the me I've divorced
 
I saw a man with tat on his big fat belly
It wiggled around like marmalade jelly
It took me a while to catch what it said
Cause I had to match the rhythm
Of his belly with my head'Jesus Saves' is what it raved in a typical tattoo green
He stood on a box in the middle of the city
And claimed he had a dream
 
(chorus)
What will people think
When they hear that I'm a Jesus freak
What will people do when they find that it's true
I don't really care if they label me a Jesus freak
There ain't no disguising the truth
 
Kamikaze, my death is gain
I've been marked by my Maker
A peculiar display
The high and lofty, they see me as weak
Cause I won't live and die for the power they seek
 
There was a man from the desert with naps in his head
The sand that he walked was also his bed
The words that he spoke made the people assumeThere wasn't too much left in the upper room
With skins on his back and hair on his face
They thought he was strange by the locusts he ate
The Pharisees tripped when they heard him speak
Until the king took the head of this Jesus freak
 
(repeat chorus 2x)
 
People say I'm strange, does it make me a stranger
That my best friend was born in a manger
People say I'm strange, does it make me a stranger
That my best friend was born in a manger
 
(repeat chorus 2x)
 
What will people think
[What will people think]
What will people do
[What will people do]
I don't really care
[What else can I say]
There ain't no disguising the truth
[Jesus is the way]
 
 
by DC Talk

Time after Church

 

First time trying out the audio blog.. Capturing the voices of the few close people in my life... there is lydia, abigail, rachael and alan.. wonderful people... Will try to get more voices and pictures of theirs will be up soon too..

Beach Outing With the Guys

Today had an excellent time with the guys at the beach. Well suppose to be cell outing, but both guys cells decided to combine together and spend the time at the beach. Actually i was feeling quite sucky.. kinda in a lazy mood and wanted busk in the sun. But there was no sun .. cloudy and cooling weather all day.. thanked God it didnt rain. Well .. like i was saying didnt feel like playing soccer or frisbee.. because i will be exerting too much energy and draining that little bit of energy i have.. but looking at the numbers, they seem to have not enough people to form proper 2 teams, not that i am that important, but i didnt wanna be a spoil sport and be extra lying around, and ppl may think that i have some problems or something ... haha .. but well i psyched myself up to play both soccer and frisbee.. It was a good time of bonding with the guys... although didnt talk much but i felt closer with the guys now.. i missed dinner though .. cos was too tired and had to lead worship the next morning ... so went home to rest..
 
well thoughts and feelings:
Hahaha .. one of the funny thing is that it's one of the times that i didnt really thought much about winning and had an enjoyable time to just play the sports ... I was quite seriously nudged but darryl .. and kicked a few times by alan.. well while thinking on the bus ride home .. in the pass such situation will lead into fights .. by today i felt nothing and was able to smile about it .. 2 conclusions 1) i have grown up through God.. or 2) they are just small kids and ppl i love and have concern for and i should be able to show them love and grace .. haha eh seems like point 2 backs up point one ..
well i feel that i was truely encouraged by the younger ones who have shown alot of skill in their sports abilities and most importantly their sportsmenship ... This goes to people like wilfren leon and darryl ... Hope that God can give me more privilege to see more growth .. especially closeness to God..
Yeah excellent time .. Thank You God ...

Lunch With 2 Young Ladies ....

Yeah ..  Today quite a nice day.. Had lunch with 2 nice ladies from work.. Their names are Zana and Lisa.. As they are one of the younger people in the office, its nice to have lunch with them.. talking and stuff .. this definitely beats having lunch alone .. Maybe i should get a pic of them .. den can blog it down ...
 
Well back to work .. Will blog more stuff later ... 
 

This morning's bus ride (16 July 2004)

Woke up this morning feeling very fresh!! Wanna know why? Cos i had 11 hours of sleep!! After work yesterday got home feelin so dead, stuffed dinner down my throat, and was knocked out on my bed at 8 oclock. the next thing i know it's 7 am in the morning. I feel so rested.
 
Today on the my bus ride to work, i finally took control of myself to not play the games in my pda( hehe.. i know it's suppose to help my QT to write down stuff.. but i guess i was a little distracted.. but i still do my QT =) .. )  I feel that bus rides is a time to relax and playing games on my pda makes me very tired. So after doing my QT, i just looked out the window and ponder and just chat with God.. ( erm.. if i am chatting with God am i still doing my QT ?? haha watever). Then many thoughts came to my head, which i will type them out now before i start forgeting.
 
Well the first thought that i had, was regarding 2 of my friends, i just met them on Wed and had a great time talking to them. One of them was sharing about himself wanting the change church, this is because he feels that he is not growing in the churhc, and that when he is there, all he does is service and ministry work. He felt very left out, that people in his church only call him when they need his help, and that they do not ask him about his welfare and what has been happening in his life. When i suggested to him that he can say no, he said then there is no one else to do it. He also says that he does not hang out with his church people as much as his outside friends. Well the other friend who just got back from a mission trip felt the same way. Well even though the mission trip was great, but had the same feelings about church, but does not have the idea of changing church. Well this is a summary of what they had shared.. 
 
These are just some thoughts that i had:
Firstly, i feel that changing churches does not change everything. I believe that service is a response because of our Love for God, as well as the people he loves, that's why we serve. You will always be growing because of your love for God, and craving to know more about him. I feel that God place you in the church for a purpose, if it is to serve, then you can get your input from other places.  When you address the youth in your church as "Your youth" is shows how much you have possess it, when it is not yours. That's why you are tired, you gotta let God handle it, cause it's God's youths. If you cant say no because nobody else is there to do it, i have 2 questions if you leave who is going to do it? and what makes you think only you can do God's work.  Erm.. are my thoughts very harsh? just felt that sometimes when we let emotions or feelings take over, we just feel very lost. well i believe everyone will go through it, but i wana encourage you to ask God for the purpose in the things you do. That it will align your thoughts with his will.

Yup .. just my thoughts.

Words Of Wisdom

From the MAN!! Benjamin Franklin

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Long Time No Blog...

Well.. It's been a month or so since i last blogged.. and i think i have lost all my supporters who actually take the time to read my blog.. well i would like to say a huge sorry guys ...
Since now i have the time, i have decided to write some stuff for my loyal supporters to read, as well as try to blog weekly to keep you guys with me .. really appreciated it. I will also try to beautify it as you can see i have put down that nice little clock which follows the cursor around haha..

Yup i have been going through this transition from studying to working life. Spending like 9 hours a day in the office, in the air con room, under those horrible flourecent lights. Really cant stand it sia.. I miss those days where i can stay at the beach and slack, and spend like 8 hours a day in the sun, den wait till the sun set den make my way home .. fwah super shiok..

Now back to reality.. you cant have that kinda job.. but work is fine.. i dun get much stuff to do as an intern but i enjoy my time here. Well i have 3 more months to go, cant wait to go back to a normal schooling life. Well ok .. going back to work ..

will blog more when i have nothing to do.